Pre-Valentine

February 12, 2011.

 

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Be My Maneuver

I wanted to write something that's not absurd, something that everybody will be pleased of, something that will change a bit of everything and yet I can't even fabricate a single thought.

I know this is one the things I am keen of but things don't seem to work out right.

I have been struggling for almost 7 months.

I have doubts and fears.

I tried to escape from the intiricacy life brings and will bring.

I was so wuss to take adversities in life. I pity myself!

I can't believe it will take too long to accept the fact.

I know, i know...I have gone astray .

But it isn't too late, is it? 

I'm learning now and I will continue learning.

Slowly by slowly.

It takes time.

I am trying hard to obey You and keep track according to Your will.

I am hoping and praying I will continue this journey with You by my side.

So please help me, touch my delicate little heart and kindle it with Your love.

Be the Maneuver of my life.

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♥ b e s t f r i e n d ♥

Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always care

And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe

Myra Lou,
Sis,
Bestfriend_Sis,
Bebeh,
Tambok,
Bati Dagway,

no words can express how blessed and grateful I am
for having a bestfriend like you in my life.
I will not find any other bestfriend even in the next generation,
I will just pray and wait again
because it was just what I did.
tadaa!
I found you.

Nothing compares to you,
every moment was cherished
every laugh was noticed
every tear was gently wiped
and every word was kept.

You mean soooo much to me,
you know that.
Thank you so much!

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D Day You Went Away

Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming ’bout you
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

Did I lose my love to someone better?
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey,
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there’s only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

And we were letting go of something special
Something we’ll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

Why do we never know what we’ve got ’til it’s gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I’ve been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

Cause I’ve been missing you so much I have to say

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••♠♥♦♠♥ Yuletide Season ♦♠♥♦♠••

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Tell Me Your Dreams

Dreams..
What are the meanings of dreams?
I wanna know what does my dream exactly mean. I keep on dreaming about death. It's terrifyng to know I was the one who's dead. Haha
It makes me wonder..."how long will I be staying?" and to just count the days before my bereavement.
If I am to die soon, can You just tell me when so I'll be able to keep things in order and spend my remaining days with them...Can You?

Anyways, here's the interpretation of my dream.

"To dream that you die in your dream, symbolizes inner changes, transformation, self-discovery and positive development that is happening within you or your life. You are undergoing a transitional phase and are becoming more enlightened or spiritual. Although such a dream may bring about feelings of fear and anxiety, it is no cause for alarm as it is often considered a positive symbol.  Dreams of experiencing your own death usually means that big changes are ahead for you. You are moving on to new beginnings and leaving the past behind. These changes does not necessarily imply a negative turn of events. Metaphorically, dying can be seen as an end or a termination to your old ways and habits. So, dying does not always mean a physical death, but an ending of something.

On a negative note, to dream that you die may represent involvement in deeply painful relationships or unhealthy, destructive behaviors. You may feeling depressed or feel strangled by a situation or person in your waking life. Perhaps your mind is preoccupied with someone who is terminally ill or dying. Alternatively, you may be trying to get out of some obligation, responsibility or other situation. You are desperately trying to escape from the demands of your daily life. "
http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/d.htm

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Can I?

Whenever I face dilemma, I pause for awhile and reflect. It usually takes time to go through but rest assured it’s worth the wait. Sometimes, I make decisions in haste without even thinking and putting things in order. This is my common mistake - recurring one. Whew
Some are just so lucky that they recover in faster way. But for me, I find it hard though I try to. I just hope I can find ways to improve my means of recovering.

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Have you ever?

Have you ever felt it was like you were betrayed?

Yeah! I know I had let you down. I took steps without informing you – that made you feel you were betrayed. I admit that what I did was wrong for not informing you of all the things I’ve been doing. I apologize. Sorry. Whew! Okay, okay. You have all the right to get mad at me.

(Haay. I don’t know what to write yet I’m trying – it’s the only way to alleviate the anxiety inside. )

Yeah! This is me. I tend to put you in the center of my life once I have you that it seems I don't care about the people around me. I have tried to overcome this but unfortunately I keep on coming back to what I am used to.

As I have said million times, 'my instinct never fails'. So, stop pretending as if you need me. And stop denying. Eyes don't lie.

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